devianttherapy

I didn't know it would be like this. It feels like I'm forever falling; the bottom isn't in sight, but the threat of it is there. Things hit me on the way down, bringing me back to reality. I don't like it there, but it feels safe. I want to stay falling forever; without a care in the world. The colours are brighter, the air fresher, and that's where you are. We're falling together; hand and hand. The world is none the wiser. The risk is great, but the whirlwind of feelings is greater. Please, fall with me forever. Let's go to Wonderland.

I'm drowning in a pool of lust. The salty sweet, pulling me down. Down. Deep down, to the point of no return. You smother me with everything you have. And I give in. I allow myself to be swallowed whole. I sink, so far down. I no longer see light. I see you.

I can't tell you exactly where it's located; it doesn't seem to be in just one spot. But it's a feeling somewhere within me, a place that I thought I had forgot. Triggered; I'm not entirely sure why or how, but it's the most powerful feeling that can take over your entire day, and everything feels like it's beyond healing. A smile feels like it's forced because you don't really mean it. While tears feel like home because they haven't stopped falling, not a bit. A world full of faded colours, slowly decomposing into gray. No matter how much you try you just can't even imagine a better day. A stranger in the mirror stares back

Pick me up and play with me; your precious little dolly. Let's laught together, have good times and generally be jolly. You'll love me as much as I love you, until someone else comes along; then your love is through. Poor little dolly, simply tossed aside. Watching you from a distance with tears forming in her eyes. Slumped in the corner wearing an invisibility cloak. Heart not as strong as you think, it isn't made of oak. I bleed, I hurt, I cry. Do you even care? What more could I do? I'd already laid myself bare. Dance around me as if I don't exist, while these negative feelings you give just persist.

Your eyes are piercing because they don't even see that what you're looking at is me.